Ru Takes on Depression

Are you happy now that you've left the little girl you raised high and dry? Are you happy now that she will always have a hole in her heart that will never be healed? Are you happy now that she'll be forever broken after all the words you said to her? Are you happy now that she'll question every relationship she has because everything you ever said to her was a lie? Are you happy now that she will question if love is real? Are you happy now that the only one that ever gave a fuck about what happened to you doesn't care anymore? Are you happy now that she doesn't want you to see any of her successes? Are you happy now that she has blocked you out of her life? Are you happy now that you'll never know what happens with her? Are you happy now that you'll never see whatever children she has? Are you happy now that the only one that dropped everything for you will never be there again? Are you happy now that she will never let you in again? Are you h...

What can I say? What can I do? I know that no matter what, these things are still going to happen. Yet, there's this voice inside me saying, "This isn't right." It's 2016 and we're acting like it's the 1960's all over again. What happen to peaceful protest? What happen to peace marches? What happened to not stooping down to the others level? I know it's easy for me to say. I'm a white female. I'm safe if a police officer decides to stop me for some reason. I don't have to wonder whether or not I'll make it home tonight just because of the color of my skin. Yet, I have wonderful friends who are black that have to live with this fear every day. I've seen them hold their breath when a police officer was near. I've seen how the fear has driven them to a point of exhaustion. I've seen them wonder who was going to call the police on them today for whatever reason or why am they were getting stopped this time. This isn't f...