Ru Takes on Depression

This past weekend, I attended my best friend’s wedding in Omaha. It was my first time west of the Missouri River and the furthest west in the United States that I’ve ever been. The wedding was beautiful and I got to see a lot of friends from high school that I haven’t seen in years. My husband and I fell in love with the city and are considering moving there in the next few years to raise our family. We came home late last night. As we unpack our bags from this trip, we find ourselves packing them right back up, as we leave for Atlanta on Saturday to visit family and then head to Walt Disney World to celebrate our anniversary and the end of summer. I should be extremely excited. Don’t get me wrong; I am! I’ve been counting down the days to this since we booked our trip way back in March. However, I find my heart sadden by the events that happened in Charlottesville, Virginia this past Saturday. For those of you who may not have heard about what went down this weekend, here’s a shor...

The semester has ended and the summer has begun. I got alright grades. It wasn't the best semester for me, but I'll just have to begin again come this fall. I can honestly say I have no clue how much longer I have to go at UWM, but I really do love it there, especially at the Honors College. The professors really seem to care about you succeeding in their classes and other classes. It's definitely different from my experience with St. Mary's. Lately I've been going through a huge depression bought. Between dealing with a lot of family issues and medical issues, it's just been one thing after another. I've been pretty much keeping to myself since being with people hasn't really helped. It's nothing against them; it's just the whole acting like everything is okay when it really isn't has been getting to me. I know I can just talk to people, but these situation aren't something I really want the whole world knowing, much less sharing about ...

            I’ve been put down, cussed at, and kicked all because of my chronic pain that I’ve been living with for the past four years now. You’d be surprise who the culprit is. It’s me. I constantly belittle myself for not being able to struggle through the pain some days. Then you put anxiety and depression issues of the pain issues and you have one big ball of wonderful. Not! That’s the life I’ve been living with ever since I found out that I have PCOS, or polycystic ovarian syndrome. Let’s get real for a moment. You don’t want to hear the gory details of my life, but I’m going to tell you anyway. Ever since I was in middle school, my periods were irregular. We never thought anything of it, because my mother’s were the same way. They were very painful at times, sometimes causing me to miss school because I didn’t want to be there while I was in so much pain. I’d fake sick to my parents so they’d let me stay home; I didn’t think they’d let me stay jus...

You may have noticed that I've now posted a picture of the real me on all my social media sites. I have decided to come out of the broom closet sorta speak and reveal who I really am. Since I want to be an author and go into editing and publishing once I graduate school, I figured that it's time I come out and introduce myself. I also figured since my husband and I are thinking about starting a daily vlog, that you'd be seeing my face sooner or later anyway, so why not now? Without further ado, welcome to the real me. My name is Alyssa Stire. I live in Milwaukee, WI with my husband, Zach, and our new furbaby, our cat, Diamond. I am 28 years old and am currently a junior at the University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee working on my bachelor's degree in English with an emphasis on Business and Technical Writing. As I stated earlier, I want to become a book editor and author. I'm also working on a certificate in Celtic Studies to learn more about the Irish culture so that I h...