Ru Takes on Depression

Hi everyone! How are you? That question always gets to me. Everyone asks me. It's polite small talk, even when you meet a stranger. It's always, "How are you?" I struggle with how to answer it. Do I answer truthfully or do I give them the standard, "I'm well, thank you. You?" Generally, I go with the standard because most people don't need to or want to dive into my feelings. With family and close friends, I decide on the fly which one it's going to be. When I'm having a really bad day, I normally don't want to talk about it. Lately, however, my emotions have been on my sleeve, so they answer it for me. I've been quick to cry, especially when I experience extreme emotions. Happy, sad, angry, frustrated, the tears have just flowed like crazy. Last week, I dealt with what I call pain days. For those of you that don't know me all to well or haven't read some of my earlier blogs, I have PCOS. I believe I wrote a blog about it i...

Hi everyone! Sorry that there were no posts the last couple of weeks. The reason actually has a lot to do with what today's topic is. I had to get over the anxiety of letting people in. It's the line from the Frozen song, "Let It Go:" "Don't let them in. Don't let them see." I feel that I've been conditioned to hide me feelings. Big girls don't cry, Ru; keep yourself together. People like you better when you're happy. And let's be honest, who really wants to read about my emotions and anxiety? It took me these two weeks to get over myself. I apologize for that. I can't help others if I'm just going to stay silent about it. It's time to take a deep breath and dive into the sea of festering anxiety and come face to face with my emotions dragon. Repeat after me, Ru, "You can do this. You can win." That's just it, though. There really is no winning or losing when it comes to depression or anxiety. Some days a...