I'm Going to Try
Good morning readers!
Happy October! I know it sure doesn't feel like fall here in Georgia. It's been HOT and humid and extremely dry. There's hope that the end of the week will bring relief to all of that and we'll get more Autumn like weather. Leaves are turning color, drying up, and falling because it is so dry. It's definitely a change from last year when I don't think the trees started losing their leaves until November.
I know that I had promised that I would start a new "season" at the beginning of September. As you can see, that didn't happen. I has also said that I was going to write three times a week. I don't think that's going to happen either. I am, however going to try to write at least once a week. They will focus on one subject. I will talk about the negative and positive aspects of that one subject. Then I'll give an update on how I've been doing for the week or however long it was. I want Wednesdays to be my writing day, but Lord knows what the future will bring.
I won't lie, I have been debating about even continuing this series all together. There has been so much going on in my head and my life that I was thinking why bother. I know that I say that so much it has probably gotten infuriating to y'all. I have been working on turning that "Why bother?" into there's a reason that the little voice inside my head keeps telling me to write and to share with whoever reads this blog. There's someone out there that I'm meant to reach, and this is the only way I can do so. Maybe I can reach someone with that needs Jesus in their life as well.
Speaking of that, I think my renewed faith will be a topic in the future. It has helped me tremendously through the depression and anxiety. I won't say that I've been perfect and haven't had anxiety and depression attacks since I've found Jesus again, but I will say that my journey to growing closer to Him has helped me. If any of you would like to talk about my faith with me, feel free to reach out to me on my social media outlets.
This summer was full of many ups, but mostly downs. I've have been fighting a constant cycle of happiness to feeling lower than dirt. My apartment has suffered. I can't remember the last time I have actually cleaned it. My health suffered as well. I fell off my Herbalife diet and gained weight. I'm sure my HbA1c has went up again, and I know my blood pressure hasn't been the greatest either. I have fought my faith tooth and nail. These last few weeks I have been tumbling down, Sunday being my darkest point in a while. I'm still working on it. It'll take time. Sometimes the waiting is unbearable.
I know I'll be okay. Just got to take this all one step at a time. The muse will call me and I will write. I know that whatever you are going through at the moment will come to an end. All these lessons have meanings. We may not know them now, but we will learn through time and reflection and healing. Life takes time. It's hard, but it's worth.
Yours until next time,
Ruari 💜🌹
Happy October! I know it sure doesn't feel like fall here in Georgia. It's been HOT and humid and extremely dry. There's hope that the end of the week will bring relief to all of that and we'll get more Autumn like weather. Leaves are turning color, drying up, and falling because it is so dry. It's definitely a change from last year when I don't think the trees started losing their leaves until November.
I know that I had promised that I would start a new "season" at the beginning of September. As you can see, that didn't happen. I has also said that I was going to write three times a week. I don't think that's going to happen either. I am, however going to try to write at least once a week. They will focus on one subject. I will talk about the negative and positive aspects of that one subject. Then I'll give an update on how I've been doing for the week or however long it was. I want Wednesdays to be my writing day, but Lord knows what the future will bring.
I won't lie, I have been debating about even continuing this series all together. There has been so much going on in my head and my life that I was thinking why bother. I know that I say that so much it has probably gotten infuriating to y'all. I have been working on turning that "Why bother?" into there's a reason that the little voice inside my head keeps telling me to write and to share with whoever reads this blog. There's someone out there that I'm meant to reach, and this is the only way I can do so. Maybe I can reach someone with that needs Jesus in their life as well.
Speaking of that, I think my renewed faith will be a topic in the future. It has helped me tremendously through the depression and anxiety. I won't say that I've been perfect and haven't had anxiety and depression attacks since I've found Jesus again, but I will say that my journey to growing closer to Him has helped me. If any of you would like to talk about my faith with me, feel free to reach out to me on my social media outlets.
This summer was full of many ups, but mostly downs. I've have been fighting a constant cycle of happiness to feeling lower than dirt. My apartment has suffered. I can't remember the last time I have actually cleaned it. My health suffered as well. I fell off my Herbalife diet and gained weight. I'm sure my HbA1c has went up again, and I know my blood pressure hasn't been the greatest either. I have fought my faith tooth and nail. These last few weeks I have been tumbling down, Sunday being my darkest point in a while. I'm still working on it. It'll take time. Sometimes the waiting is unbearable.
I know I'll be okay. Just got to take this all one step at a time. The muse will call me and I will write. I know that whatever you are going through at the moment will come to an end. All these lessons have meanings. We may not know them now, but we will learn through time and reflection and healing. Life takes time. It's hard, but it's worth.
Yours until next time,
Ruari 💜🌹
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